The Frankston line - Youth Group

Monday, November 02, 2009 Edit This 0 Comments »
The day is grey, I don't love you anymore
The sun smiles on the red tiles,
I don't love you anymore
The Frankston Line's full of teenage crime
and the cops can't do no more
Hooded tops, cigarettes at stops,
I don't love you anymore

I’ll leave you, I won't leave you
The sea's so beautiful

The council plans for seaside lands mean beauty writ in law
Views of the seas in legalese, I don't love you anymore

I searched through your house for my skin
We end to begin
The sea dog will say its alright
We'll be alright

30 days around Melbourne, Victoria

Monday, November 02, 2009 Edit This 0 Comments »



Four seasons in one day
Lying in the depths of your imagination
Worlds above and worlds below
The sun shines on the black clouds hanging over the domain
Four seasons in one day by Crowded House


A few days ago, a friend of mine named yuza asked me to update my blog more often. Well, i'd take that as a compliment and a very supportive way of encouraging someone like me to passionately pursuing my dream of becoming an entrepreneur in the creative industry. So I thought, if I want to update my blog with an incredible stories to entertain the reader during my holiday, then I have to set a goal and explore something, instead of just laying around at home editing photos and playing Farmville on Facebook on a 4months holiday (how pathetic, i know. *sigh).


But then!! Thanks to him (re: yuza), i have an idea of exploring Melbourne! My beloved city I currently live in! :D Well, actually Jakarta is still my hometown but you can go to 30 interesting places in Jakarta in less than a week, so yeah. In 30 days of NOVEMBER, I will start to explore MORE than YOU KNOW about MELBOURNE!! Well, I'm not sure about what are the everything yet, but let's see along the way, shall we!! it's gonna be FUN!! *excited Yeaayyy!! *screaming enthusiastic

Loving you is never a regret

Wednesday, October 28, 2009 Edit This 0 Comments »
What is love?
Is it a serious matter? i'll answer yes.
More than exam? I'll answer no.
Love will not jeopardize your relationship with your family; regarding those amounts of money had been thrown away for those univeristy subjects.
But, it will certainly jeopardize your everyday life.
Always thinking of him, nothing else but him.
Never never give all of your thoughts to someone who doesnt even think about you.

"I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had. But, I can’t because I know you won't come after me, and I guess that's what hurts the most."

For me, loving him is never a regret, but to not be able to be something better than his girlfriend right now, that's what I regret the most.

I will always love you

Wednesday, October 28, 2009 Edit This 0 Comments »
When you said forever, you meant a few months.
When I said forever, I meant every day until I died.
When you said always, you meant until you couldn't handle it anymore.
When I said always, I meant until time ended.
When you said you loved me, you meant I was no different from any other girl.
When I said I loved you, I meant I had never felt what I felt for you.

How can I not love you

Monday, July 06, 2009 Edit This 2 Comments »
You know what’s sad about love?
It’s when you happen to know there’s just no hope for you being together, yet you still pray to make it work
It’s when your mind says let go but your heart says hold on
And most of all, it’s when no matter how hard you try to forget him you just can’t
Because of the fact that you still love him and you just don’t know why

Try loving someone you’ve loved before and you’ll realize that it will either lead to the same thing that happened before or something better
Not hard isn’t it?
But why not try loving someone who doesn’t love you back
It’s either you see yourself giving up, or dying daily.

If you love and get hurt, love more
If you love more and get hurt more, love even more
If you love even more and get hurt even more
Love some more until it hurts no more

The gauge of how much you truly treasure something or someone is not how happy you are with them
But how sad you are when you lose them
One grows distant from another not because indifference, but because of fear
There’s the fear that’s the hurt gets greater as one gets closer

Recognition of the tendency to fall deeply, and consequently drown in a quicksand of stupid irrationalities
Sometimes, what drives one away is not the absence of emotion, but the overwhelming presence of it

Falling in love is never a decision, always by chance
Staying in love is never a chance, always by choice
and falling out of love is never a choice, always a decision

Attraction comes to us by chance, but true love that lasts is truly a choice

Listen: Fate brings you together, but it still up to you to make it happen
We may meet someone by chance, but loving and staying with that someone is still a choice

Just because my eyes don’t have tears,
It doesn’t mean my heart doesn’t cry
Just because you always see me strong
It doesn’t mean there’s nothing wrong

Sometimes I choose to pretend I’m happy
So I don’t have to explain to people who would never even understand
Smiling is easier than explaining to all why I am sad
It’s never the tears that measure the pain
Sometimes, it’s the smile we fake
A person who truly loves you is someone who sees the pain in your eyes,
While everyone still believes in the smile on your face

The person you love most has the best capacity to make you the happiest person in the world and may give you the worst heartache you can never imagine
Time can heal wounds, but it can never get back what once we had and lost
Time can’t tell when or how we would move on after all was said and done
Because God gave us time but we never valued this gift he had given us
So learn to treasure the ones you choose to love now
Because when they go, there won’t be time to have them back

In life, I have done everyway of fighting, heard every painful truth, been in every heartbreaking scene, and felt every dreadful feeling
I thought going through it all will then make me realize that I have to stop the fighting at least to save a little for myself
But you know what’s funny?
It’s when I seem so tired of it all
But still I can’t just quit no matter how hard it is
And I have to continue hoping that one day
I’ll be able to find someone who could love me not just “right” but “real”

“Love is like giving someone a gun
having them point it at your heart
and trusting them to never pull the trigger”

I don’t know why we all hang on to something we’re better off letting go
It’s like we’re scared to lose what we don’t even really have
Some of us say we’d rather have that something than absolutely nothing
But the truth is “to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all.”

I want to know someone who could ease the pain that I have
Who could hold me tight, the one who will never let me go,
till every drop of tears that I have had fallen, till every strength that I have has already passed out, then I can no longer move
As he lay me down in my bed, sings me a lullaby till I fall asleep and whisper beside me, “I will never leave you, angel of mine.”

Time may take us away
Space may keep us apart
Rumors and hurts may break us down
Yet no matter where life leads us,

”I’ll always be here and I’ll never stop caring.”

Everybody means so much, and you're special :)

Monday, July 06, 2009 Edit This 0 Comments »

The Don Boscoers and Me :)

The MIBT Jakarta-ers and Me :)

The Festival Indonesia crews and Me :)

My besties in Melbourne and Me :)

There are places i'll remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends i still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life i've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When i think of love as something new
Though i know i'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know i'll often stop and think about them

In my life i love you more

Jeje and Me :)

I never liked him anyway :((

Monday, July 06, 2009 Edit This 0 Comments »
Hinder – Without You

I just wanna be alone tonight
I just wanna take a little breather
Cause lately all we do is fight
And every time it cuts me deeper

Cause something’s changed
You’ve been acting so strange
And its taking its toll on me
Its safe to say that I’m ready to let you leave

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, I’m seeing myself so differently
I didn’t wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought i'd say
I’m fine
Without you

Agnar, my used-to-be bestfriend, and Me :(